I love you more than you know.

Here is to another great year!

I’ve been pretty quiet lately.  Not just here on the blog but in real life too.  So much has been going on and I’ve just been needing some processing time.

Tomorrow I will lose my buddy.  Our Dalmatian Thunder is 12 years old and has been slowly but progressively losing his mind.  He becomes obsessive about everything, especially licking but has also become aggressive.  We’ve tried to keep an eye out to prevent anything but he has now bitten Thing 1 twice.  I’m talking full puncture bite and one of those times he pinned down Thing 1.  That was the moment we knew what we had to do.

It’s killing me.  We can’t risk this happening again but I feel like a murderer.

I’m really going to miss my buddy.

*Update* – Thunder passed away on Saturday October 24^th at 12 noon EST. He died cuddling on my lap.

October 15th

Thing 1 can read and write.  I’ve realized it was starting to click for awhile.  If we wrote down simple words like cat he could sound it out and figure out the word.  Yesterday we were hanging out on the couch on a nice lazy Sunday and I gave him a squeeze and told him that I loved him.  He took off to go colour at the table.  A few moments later he came back with a piece of paper that said “and Mom I ♥ U to“

NO HELP!  The boy can write too.  He gets it!

I’m a proud Mommy.

The biopsy is done and over with.  YAY!!

So she told me everything looked swollen but good.  This is good and bad.  It’s great because I don’t want anything to be wrong, but it sucks because there IS something wrong and I just want to know what.  That doesn’t mean that nothing was found it just wasn’t seen with the naked eye.  We await the pathologist.  My GI suspects one of 2 things, the same 2 things I keep saying.  Celiac Disease, or a Non Celiac Gluten Intolerance (NCGS or NCGI).

My always low blood pressure hit an all time rock bottom while I was there.  No matter what they did they couldn’t get my blood pressure to go above 62/58.  After 3 hours it did eventually go up to 86/58 but it was short lived.  They planned on admitting me but for whatever reason I was still sent home.  She is concerned about the stress of all of this on my body.   If the results come back as Celiac then this is likely part of the autoimmune reaction.  If it’s NCGS then it may be part of a bigger puzzle.  That scares me as whatever this is has already ruptured an organ on me.

So while I was *hoping* to walk away Friday with an answer I ended up with more questions.