One of our Friends J started showig me a whole bunch of the photos she found today of when she was pregnant with her youngest son and all the pictures from the Hospital. She even had the ankle bracelet and everything out. She then said “Doesn’t that make you want to have another one so bad”? I sat there with a happy face but I nearly died inside.

Logically I know these things happen. It’s just the way life works. I just can’t seem to get my heart to agree with my brain. I feel like I deserve this.

Hubby and I have been harbouring a little secret. We haven’t told a single soul, not even our families. This post is the first time I’ve said it out loud.

Then I was asked a question that gave me pause; “You keep saying everything will be ok, just who are you really trying to convince anyway? You or Me?”

…To the funny farm. Where life is beautiful all the time and I’ll be
happy to see those nice young men in their clean white coats and they’re
coming to take me away, ha-haaa!!!!!